Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Another night down

It's almost 7 in the morning on Thursday I think and yesterday afternoon was pretty rough. We can't sit down with Zoey, she wants you to stand constantly with her and let me tell you Vince and I both are so sore this morning. I kept trying to cradle her yesterday and she wouldn't look at me, would arch her back and scream. It was so heartbreaking to me. I know that she is having some trust issues and is grieving, I think. She cried and cried, but it still has not been quite as bad as what i had tried to set myself up for. Then last night she wouldn't go to sleep. We kept putting her down and she would sleep for a bit and then wake up. She finally went to sleep when I put the hip hammock on and walked her for over an hour. then I just layed down with it on and finally shimmied out of it after about an hour and a half. Hopefully today will be a turning point. In a way I am kind of glad we are going through this, so maybe by the time we get to Guangzhou she'll be much happier. Oh well she's up so I will post later.

9 comments:

wareaglefam said...

Oh...bless you! She is probably just struggling with the "newness" of it all. I can't imagine her fear. Hang in there, and take one baby step at a time. You will win her ower in no time flat! When I was struggling after Kelley Anne was born, a friend of mine told me that Gd tells us in the Lord's Prayer that He will provide us "daily bread." Just keep thinking one day at a time, and God will provide that "bread" for you.
I love you so much!
Tracy

lee marlow said...

I am so sorry it's been so hard..I had prayed that yall would be the exception and would be spared this expected and terrible situation. I guess it's a good thing that you had that extra epidural shot for all that standing and walking. Where do you walk? Up and down the halls? Or in circles in your room? I think of you every minute and can't wait to see you again. Come home soon. Please tell Madison how much we love her and miss her!

lee marlow said...

From Emily:
I hope that Zoey is the most adorable thing in the world. I hope you are happy. I hope you are having a great time and we'll see you soon. Madison, I love you so much and hope to see you soon. love, emmy

lee marlow said...

From Suzanna:
I love you all so much. I can't wait to see Zoey and you again. I can't stop thinking about you at school and at home. I told my teacher that she can get on your blog to see all the pictures of yalls new beautiful child. When I think about you I start to cry because I miss yall so much because I'm so used to being around yall i can't stop thinking about yall. Love, Suzanna

lee marlow said...

From Michela: (this is a song to the beat of Hannah Montana's "I mIss YOu")
I miss youuuuu
I miss your jokes
I don't shed any tears cause yall are the best folks
And it will be different now cause Zoey's with us now
I just need you to know I miss you
Shalalalala I miss you!

Come home soon...i love ya
Michela

Anonymous said...

Amanda,

Zoey will get better each day. It is hard for the first few days, but she should settle down by the time you get to Guangzhou. And, just be prepared for sleep issues for a while. Some do have them and some do not...even after coming home. We're all here to help if we can do anything.

You're definitely doing the right thing by keeping her as close to you as you possibly can...and are physically able. It is exhausting, I know.

A big hug from good ol' Springville, Alabama ! :-)

Jan

Carla said...

Yes, that's grieving and trust issues. It's so hard, but it does get better. One thing someone in our travel group did was hold them with the baby's ear next to the parent's heart. When Katie was so upset with me holding her, that is how I would hold her...upright but with her head on my chest (not cradled...hard to explain). It seemed to help a little.

{hug} I know it's tough. I'll be praying for you all.

monkeyseemonkeydontdo said...

Babies are tough, no matter how they come to you! You are such a strong woman, one of the strongest I know! This is an amazing, loving thing you and your family have done. Zoey and Madison were given two incredible people to be their parents, and I am proud to call you guys friends! I just can't wait to give YOU a big hug!!!!! Love you!!

The Ferrill's said...

And here's another hug to go with Jan's!
Remember, crying is actually a really good thing! Hard to endure, but better for her to cry and get those emotions out now, trust me. I have looked at the pics over and over again and am just amazed by this miracle! Zoey sounds like she is doing fabulous and we are praying for continued grace, strength and good health for all!
We love yall!